often times, i wake up from a dream due to an alarm, a phone call, etc. and i find myself wanting to continue the dream so i try to go back to sleep. this occasionally works, but usually ends up causing a twist or a turn that is not always in my favor. 

i hope to start writing more about my dreams. last night i had a particularly interesting and long, drawn out, woken up a few times in the middle dream. i should have written when i first got up. i just remembered this dream because there was someone making 2 bags of popcorn in the dream and i came up behind them and was conversing with them as to why. i’m just looking for healthy snack ideas and popcorn was on the list. obviously this triggered the memory of that aspect in the dream.

the part i woke up to, was that kels had begun texting and talking to him. i was upset about it and obviously i have some issue feeling threatened by her. i know its my own shit, but she just always has such a keen interest in him, it has always bothered me. i barely remember the details now, but i do remember feeling like she was keeping it from me. i felt betrayed and left out. 

then i remembered the earlier part and the setting of the seen. i was with kels in a city like new york and she was studying for her finals. we must have been staying at a hotel, because we had a hotel room that i went to and called him after i found out she had been texting him. in the beginning of the dream, i went to go look for something and i was carrying my chanel marais tote. i was walking around a corner when two men came up to me and began trying to get things OUT of my purse. they were also trying to take the bag itself, but more than anything they were trying to get at something inside of the purse. i fought them off for quite awhile and called for help. i’m not sure if anyone ever came to help, but they eventually left and i still had everything intact. 

i likened him to the chanel bag. when i relayed that comparison to satsuma, he asked me if the bag was black and indeed it was. not only black, but big, rough, AND black.