It’s the first Sunday of the month, so I should use this as an excuse to be productive and set out a plan for October. I hear the wind blowing outside and it feels like Fall has finally arrived. I don’t know why I keep procrastinating, why I have been so lazy. Is it really because of the herbs? I definitely need to get back to taking my supplement regimen regularly, and eating regularly for that matter too. I know that I can be my best self, I just don’t know why I keep falling short of that.

I was talking to him last night and he said that you have to constantly be working toward your goals, constantly working, no downtime, and that’s how it goes. I think to some extent that is true, it certainly is not a productive use of time to be sitting down watching television all day. Not that I do, I guess I really have been spending WAY too much time on twitter, facebook, and all of this other mindless bullshit which is not getting me to the end goal. I make these plans for myself and then I don’t stick to them and it is soooo aggravating.

Today I really need to achieve some things and it doesn’t really matter the order or how long it takes to get them done, what matters is that they happen. I need to do all of the dishes in the kitchen, I need to go on a walk, I need to make a plan for the week and organize everything. There are several things that I want and need to get done before my parents come to visit and that means I will need to be diligent in working to achieve those goals. No being lazy and day-dreaming around the house all day like I seem to be fond of doing.

I’m going to walk to the supermarket and buy something to cook for dinner. I will return home, clean the kitchen, and make dinner. Then I need to make a list of all my “chores” to do before the end of the week. I seriously need to focus on making MONEY tomorrow. Quick money at that.

I would really just like to get on track and quit making grand plans and statements and not following through. When it comes to goals, the fact is that I have a very low rate of follow through and that sucks! The one thing that feels so great every time I read through an old entry is the fact that I am actually now a non-smoker. I’m done, I’m over them, I’ve moved on. Sure, occasionally the thought crosses my mind, but since that one slip, that one testing of the waters 30 days in, I have no desire to try it again. It wasn’t anything magical or wonderful, it felt nice and comforting, but what resulted after was the desire all over again and it almost felt like starting all over again. No Thank you! SOOOOO Happy to be a non-smoker with 37 days under my belt.