i feel really happy right now. i feel like everything is going how it should be and what i am working for. of course i need to get more regimented, but i am moving, i am going to pilates, i am doing the things i need to do to get this job. i am talking to him openly and feeling secure in who i am and what i believe. i really feel great. i love that he is living his dream right now and still feels like he is not there. i love that he is not there yet, but is a little paranoid and nervous. i just love him and i am so happy that he is back in my life. i know i have to love lukewarm, but i feel so pleased with how my life is progressing at this point.

of course i want to be thinner and lose weight faster, but i am becoming happy from the inside out and it will come. i feel content with myself, who i am, and what i have to offer. i know i can be a great employee for this job, even being the girl that never wanted to be an employee or have a job. i know i will be really good and enjoy myself. i know i can be a good friend and have a good relationship with him.

i feel a shift in my perception of my relationship with him. i think its amazing to have a person like him in my life, someone that i can connect with so will, who understands me, who gets me so naturally. someone that i get so naturally, that i can relate to, that i can support, that i can uplift. it feels nice. i don’t really care how many other girls there are, i know that he does that for me and i can feel