So other than making a meager attempt at daily writing, I really haven’t done much in the way of my health goals. Still smoking, still eating whatever the fuck I feel like, and still feeling like the fucking michelin man. Today I’m wearing sweats that are on the verge of being too small for me and this is simply unacceptable.

I’ve been sleeping past noon and wandering through life in a daze – by the time the sun starts going down around 4:30pm, I feel like the day is done and it’s time to relax and watch some TV. Afterall, no serious work can be done during the twilight, right? I know this all sounds crazy, but this is what goes through my head. It’s friday night and instead of getting excited about some weekend plans, I prefer to pretend it’s not a weekend at all to make up for my lack of anything to do.

I’m in a sad state and as much as I’d like to turn that around, I just don’t seem motivated to do it. It’s frustrating to say the least, but not enough that I’ve actually pushed through it all. I will give myself a little credit in that I have taken the time to get some items photographed and listed, which is better than none, but still a far cry from what I have left to do.

I’m chipping away at it everyday, but I would be making more progress if I were getting up early in the morning when the sun rises and beginning my day then instead of when it’s halfway over. I also had the realization that I should probably start tracking my calories if I am not going to eat a specific strict diet. For the sake of simplicity, I think I am going to do frozen meals with fresh fruits and vegetables. I should also look up the calorie content from various food places in the area, so if I do decide to eat out, I will know what kind of damage I am doing.

I want to get a big box of citrus – oranges, tangerines, whatever – something without seeds preferably. There is nothing better than a sweet, tangy, cold tangelo. I want to make some hearty soups to have on hand. I need to make a meal plan and that’s not exactly something I’m crazy about doing.